Thank you so much for pouring your heart out in your blog. I have learned a lot about myself and what a transition it has been for you. Your one comment about anger really got me thinking. As an old guy my testosterone has been falling for some time and I have noticed the changes in my feelings. I cry at the most lame movies, and find I love people more than ever. I rarely get angry, it's more likely my feelings get hurt. I cried when I read about your Dad and Brother. That is so sad. My wife had a problem with her Dad for years. It surfaced the Christmas after we were married. She was upset with the situation but could not find any resolution. Since he was a drunk, there ws nothing she could really do. I said," Send him a Christmas card and just say Merry Christmas. Don't expect a call, or anything in response." A week after Christmas She got a birthday card from her Dad, and that started a slow reconnection. I told her not to expect anything to really change over and over. It took a few years, but eventually he quite calling her when he had been drinking and they have a good relationship now. So this Christmas send your Dad and brother a card with two words Merry Christmas, and don't expect anything in return. You will feel better knowing you took the first step forward, and it is up to them to grow a individuals. Yours truly, Jo An