PMS 101 *EOTWP*
01 January![]() |
Week 48 |
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Mid-to-late 2014: A very scared and weary me with my sweet boy, T.C. (pre-therapist sessions) |
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Finally catching up with myself. :) |
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12 months! :D |
I've always been so self-conscious about my weight. Getting called toothpick or beanpole, getting told I should eat more, and even having vile jokes about my weight in relation to sexuality growing up has always put me on edge and made me quite aware of this particular aspect of my physicality. I've always kept myself small. I would eat and eat and eat as a teenager and into my 20s, and I'd never gain a single bit of extra weight. It wasn't until my late 20s that my metabolism started slowing, and I began gaining added weight. Around September of last year, I reached the maximum weight I've ever gained, standing 5'10" at almost 170 pounds.
I knew that I needed to shed some of that before transitioning to get myself in a better position to go forward and allow my body (and genetics) to have better results via the hormones. You see, I run. A lot. No, really, a LOT (though I haven't much this past year because of transitioning and my fear of reacting badly to running long distances under my hormone regiment — scared of the possible adverse effects.) But last year, between the months of September to November, I dropped that weight back to my "comfort" level by running more than I usually do. I went from an almost 170 pounds down to 135. I felt great. Though, the depression leading up to transitioning might have helped a small bit in losing some of that weight.
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November 2014: I had finally dropped back down to 135 pounds. I was a LOT more comfortable with myself. (Pre-transition) |
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Boobs and hips, yay! :D :D |
Maybe the point I'm trying to make is that I don't really have a point. Hah. I should be thrilled this added weight is finally happening. It's just...it's been so long since I've cracked 150 pounds, and seeing my weight reach that point again scares me ever so slightly (even more so since I've shrunk in height a tiny bit.) Retaining water more easily doesn't help matters either — which is hysterical since it always occurs when my roommate is on her period (and that week is this week. We've been synced up for a while now. LOLs.
Anyhow, happy New Year, you guys. Here's to this year bringing all sorts of wonderful, new changes! *raises wine glass* See ya. And be good! <3 (Another post coming soon about New Year's Eve! Promise!)
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